For me it is a challenge and an opportunity to live in faith no matter what comes.
I found several passages from a book I recently finishsed reading that seem to bear directly on this issue of faith. I, for no particular reason, today opened this book on Christian mysticism to a page where I found just the right words that are right for me and for this moment (opening a book, "for no particular reason" to just the right page, at just the right time to find just the right idea is definitely a way that inner guidance contacts me):
From St. John of the Cross - It is only by faith that we contact God. . . [and this] often demands detachment from and letting go of feelings and emotions. And from Thomas Merton - It is in times of darkness that He works most deeply within our "heart of hearts" to gradually transform us.
In the e-mail I sent to many friends after the events in Connecticut, I said - My heart is broken, maybe forever. I am inconsolable. I cried out with other more negative comments in what was the overwhelm and anger of the moment. Anything said in anger will always be wrong. I came across the words of Mother Teresa - God knows two languages: tears and silence. So now for me the time for tears is passing and it is time for silence. In silence is faith renewed and made stronger. These are times of darkness, and may become darker, but in silence there is light. The light of God working in our heart of hearts. This has forcefully brought home to me the utmost importance of being silent and letting God speak in my heart of hearts. I have been given the opportunity to "live the truth I know." Perhaps this is my opportunity to open to being "gradually transformed." God is working in me. Once again I can say - I turn everything over to God and am at Peace. I live in faith no matter what comes.
For me this event needs more silence, and I feel the need to write more - after a while. I plan to make this the subject of the January/February newsletter, and make it available to all on the website sometime during the month of January.